Well, I forgot to mention the shots, although I would like to forget that time altogether. The foster parents were late with her shots. In fact the whole 9 months they had her they took her to the Dr. only three times. I have done double that in 1.5 months.
Well, I didn't know much about them getting shots except for A) it will hurt and B) they won't feel good after.(assuming that meant cranky and sleepy for a day.)
She was behind and had to get six shots .... SIX SHOTS! That's a lot for a youngster, but I was told by a few Dr. that doing them all at once is better than them catching one of the diseases... so we did it.
OH BOY... She is tough! She did look at me in horror and said MOMMA MOMMA MOMMA and I wanted to slap the nurse and run out the door with her. I did good too... until we got in the car... I cried like a baby... it was so emotional and exhausting trying to keep my cool. I wanted to drive her to get ice cream but decided I didn't want to start the whole... comfort food when you are hurt or said deal... so I got myself the comfort food and we went home..(LOL,, I am already exposed to that so what the heck!).
She seemed fine, took a nap and when she got up she was sicker than a dog... I mean scary sick... Moaning and laying on me not moving. Her fever was high and I was scared to death. We took her to after hours care and they gave her a stronger dose of Tylenol and we waited it out... over 24 hours of miserable sickness for her. It was awful. I hate the whole " let it runs in coarse thing "... that is just terrible. Luckily they won't remember it when they get older. that is the only thing going for us Mom's!
She got over it... but has to get 1 more extra shot the next two times to finish getting us caught up! I dread it. Next month too! UGH! This time we will wait until after her Birthday so she can actually have a good time!
I will say this... she is tough. At this age at least. she barely cried. Just a somber quite cry and a couple of tears. That is more than I can say for me... it was horrifying! I wanted to call that stupid foster Mother in the middle of the night and chew her out SO badly..... This is all her fault and that is who gets the blame for all of this!!
Thank God for comfort food....
Sunday, June 27, 2010
PARTY!
Emmy went to a girl birthday party, her cousin Alexa. She had a blast. She played for 2 hours and had a great time. She ate cake and helped Alexa open some of her presents. Emmy gave Alexa a doll, a book and the Candy Land game. Alexa's party was pink and orange and full of candy, cakes and balloons. Alexa turned "2"!
So cute how Alexa and Emmy hug, kiss and hold hands. Alexa is already mothering at age 2! soooo sweet!
Emmy got to meet her great, great uncle Jack and Aunt Bettie and also great uncle Jerry . Of course she was a wiggle worm and was always right in the middle of the action.
Boy did she sleep good last night..... She fell asleep in the car on the way home, had a bottle, bath and books and didn't hesitate to lay in her crib and fall fast asleep.
Daddy on the other handle wasn't sure about all the kids.... he wanted to go and then realized this is a house full of kids running every where... LOL I told him to get ready.... we have many more of these and I cannot wait to get into a house to accommodate lots of children and family for Emmy's parties. until then we will have them elsewhere as we definitely aren't kid proofed or have the room to do so. Oh Daddy... was funny and not sure about all of those kids! I loved it! Get ready daddy... it's going to be an adventurous exhausting time!
I can't wait!
So cute how Alexa and Emmy hug, kiss and hold hands. Alexa is already mothering at age 2! soooo sweet!
Emmy got to meet her great, great uncle Jack and Aunt Bettie and also great uncle Jerry . Of course she was a wiggle worm and was always right in the middle of the action.
Boy did she sleep good last night..... She fell asleep in the car on the way home, had a bottle, bath and books and didn't hesitate to lay in her crib and fall fast asleep.
Daddy on the other handle wasn't sure about all the kids.... he wanted to go and then realized this is a house full of kids running every where... LOL I told him to get ready.... we have many more of these and I cannot wait to get into a house to accommodate lots of children and family for Emmy's parties. until then we will have them elsewhere as we definitely aren't kid proofed or have the room to do so. Oh Daddy... was funny and not sure about all of those kids! I loved it! Get ready daddy... it's going to be an adventurous exhausting time!
I can't wait!
Friday, June 25, 2010
10 Month Check up...
When we got her her weight was 12 lbs. and she was -2 in weight percentage
10 month check up she was 17 lbs. and now 3% in weight, 33 inches long
Her height was 46% (Normal)
and her head was 33% (normal)
We are making progress slowly but surely. The Dr. said he expects her to catch up by 12-18 months.
Don't let the size fool you... she is bigger than life in that small package!
10 month check up she was 17 lbs. and now 3% in weight, 33 inches long
Her height was 46% (Normal)
and her head was 33% (normal)
We are making progress slowly but surely. The Dr. said he expects her to catch up by 12-18 months.
Don't let the size fool you... she is bigger than life in that small package!
Emmy... Journey.....Bailey...... What's in the name here....
Well, it is kinda strange how the names stick.... I couldn't figure out for the life of me why I kept calling her different things. The name thing is so confusing. More and more each day the name Emmy fits her. Although sometimes when I am a little angry with her I call her Bailey...... probably because I was so used to yelling "Bailey" when Bailey would pee on the carpet once again.... Then there is the mix up of Journey and Emmy all of the time. Daddy was calling her Journey, Mommy was calling her Emmy... and it was confusing as heck. I let it rest. I never wanted to discourage anyone from calling her what they felt they wanted to call her. But I think in all of our hearts... Emmy is the name that feels right. Journey is great, it has so much meaning... but the Journey is over and life has begun. We won't close the book, but we sure of heck have turned the page to a beautiful beginning. I usually call her Emmy when she is being silly... or laughing because after all.... that is what was great about Grandma! She was always silly or laughing and smiling and I think that is why Emmy fits her so well. When she is chatting a lot, and talking to the TV, cookie monster or me... I call her Emmy Mae..... which reminds me of Grandma Lola..... LOL.
She has such a great name... wonder what she will want to be called when she is older......
She has such a great name... wonder what she will want to be called when she is older......
First words..... in order:
Da Da at 36 weeks
Papa
Hi
Momma
Nana
Okay
She really catches on fast. She also is very very mischievous. Very ornery and very cute! There is a sweet smile that will light you on fire with warmth. She is such a sweetie!
She started walking at 10 months by herself, but she walked and took five steps between Mommy and Daddy at 9 months.
Her latest thing is to shake her head no back and forth several times with a big smile on her face. It's VERY cute! Aunt Lindy taught her to rock... bobbing her head forward and now she does that to music, although her first sign of rhythm was with her arms..... up in the air. She also at nine months would throw both hands up in the air and say YAY!
At 10 months she is clapping on her own and loves patty-cake and itzy=bitzy spider!
She loves giving kisses with her mouth wide open. She won't hesitate to give you 2-3 in a row either.
This morning I told her " you forgot to give mommy a kiss good morning". She dropped her toy and took her paci outta her mouth fast and gave me a kiss.... three times and put her paci back in her mouth. She is such a joy to have around. It's like living for the first time!
Papa
Hi
Momma
Nana
Okay
She really catches on fast. She also is very very mischievous. Very ornery and very cute! There is a sweet smile that will light you on fire with warmth. She is such a sweetie!
She started walking at 10 months by herself, but she walked and took five steps between Mommy and Daddy at 9 months.
Her latest thing is to shake her head no back and forth several times with a big smile on her face. It's VERY cute! Aunt Lindy taught her to rock... bobbing her head forward and now she does that to music, although her first sign of rhythm was with her arms..... up in the air. She also at nine months would throw both hands up in the air and say YAY!
At 10 months she is clapping on her own and loves patty-cake and itzy=bitzy spider!
She loves giving kisses with her mouth wide open. She won't hesitate to give you 2-3 in a row either.
This morning I told her " you forgot to give mommy a kiss good morning". She dropped her toy and took her paci outta her mouth fast and gave me a kiss.... three times and put her paci back in her mouth. She is such a joy to have around. It's like living for the first time!
Monday, June 21, 2010
OKAY!
I should have written sooner... although I have been a very busy "new" Mommy! YES.... after all the heart wrenching years, FINALLY a Mommy at last! It has been a roller coaster(this time a good worth while one!) Okay let me start off from where I left off.
On Tuesday April 13th we met Katherine AKA Tummy Mommy at the attorney's office. Little did she know we were watching out the window as my friend Felicia drove and parked in the parking lot at the attorney's office. All we saw was Felicia coming around to the other side, jumped in and was obviously holding Katherine. It was hard for her.... and I am actually glad it was because if it weren't then I would know she didn't care about Emmy. I wanted to always know she had a heart and was a good person. That she cared so much for Emmy that she had to let her go to have a better life. I knew for many other reasons how extra hard this was on her. I wasn't like other's.... my main concern was Katherine. I wanted her to feel safe and secure about this. If she didn't... I wanted her to take Emmy and try for a good life with her. Although I knew deep in my heart that wasn't going to be. I went outside the attorney's office and waiting for her to come up the elevator with Journey (AKA EMMY). I wanted to make sure she was sure about this before she met Nana and Papa and before even seeing the inside of the attorney's office. THANK GOD the attorneys office was very nice and the two attorney's one of which was Aunt Melanie's good friend and someone I knew well, but Kristy was so sweet and down to earth. She had a good heart, not like what you would normally think about an attorney's office. aunt Kristi was there taking beautiful pictures of the whole thing... being careful not to overwhelm Katherine...she did a superb job of it all. Taking the most delicarte pictures of such an emotional day. Katherine came around the corner and I just hugged her. At that moment I wanted to adopt her too! I wish we were so rich we could have. Even though I knew it would be somewhat of a risk. I love that girl and I really hope she stays involved somehow in Emmy's life. I know it is hard for her. It isn't for me. I have no jealous or greedy feelings about it. I am Mommy and she is Tummy Mommy. Basically she has two Mommy's and I will never to anything to change that. Only Katherine can change that within Emmy, it isn't my business or place to stand in the way, nor would I ever want to.
We went inside... I asked family to step out along with David and I. I wanted Katherine to hear all the negative in doing this. That there will be no written statement that it is an open adoption. that once she signs her rights away, it is forever. All of the harsh words came down on her like being locked away forever. I knew this would be tough once she heard it soberly, and bluntly from the attorney's lips. I wanted her to do what she felt... not what she thought "we" wanted. So we waited patiently. The attorney (Kristy) left the room and we let Katherine and Felicia talk it through so that Katherine understood the meaning of this. Letting go of her rights forever. Later Katherine came out and handed Emmy to me and said " I want you to be the Mother of Journey and raise her". My heart fluttered with sadness for her and my heart broke inside as well. This isn't about me... this is about Journey...Emmy.... having a good life... but her Mom letting her go because she loved her so much. Bless Katherine... she didn't know if we were lying to her that we would always stay in touch... and were just going to run off for her to never hear about her again. She was so brave. She did such a selfless thing and let her go to a better home and give her a life that she couldnt give her. It was touching ... sad and happiness rolled into one. I put the happiness in the back of my heart and focused on Katherine. That was my main focus and all of my worries! I loved her like a daughter after all the prior communication and support her and I gave each other. (through this Journey). It was a happy time... and a very hard time for Katherine. It just tore out my heart... I cried with her. Once the papers were notorized... we hugged each other with everyone watching. I held her sooo tight. I literally wanted to pick her up and rock her in my arms. She held Journey so tight. Gave her to David and we held each other more. I LOVE her with every part of me. She is so strong and I look up to her for that. If ANYONE would ever say anything about her in a negative way I would lash into them. THAT will be forever! She is family... and now legally! :o)
deep breath.... we walked out and of course hugged some more and then we all went to lunch at Mi Cocina. Except Emmy... Nana, Papa, and Daddy. Yea... Daddy and Mommy is what we are now... (proudly) I got the baby I wanted from the minute I sat eyes on her. I fell in love with her so fast it would make your head spin. I loved her from head to toe as if she was meant for me fomr day one...... (the christmas party)
We went to the restaurant and it was a little tense. Not in a bad way but I think we were all so exhausted emotionally. We all had a margarita and relaxed ..."some". Aunt Jenifer wanted to meet her so we stayed until she could get there with Braden and Hunter. She was so excited to meet Katherine. Later after Emmy's nap Nana and Papa brought her there to see us all again and for Katherine to see how we all are with her. I think she felt good about it.... I think she was starting to feel peace over her. I could look into her eyes and read her mind.... I knew there would be deep pain... but I also knew she trusted me and felt good about the decission she made.
What a joyous time for us all. For Katherine it was bitter sweet... kinda for me too.... but once that focus was gone and I took Emmy home... it was the happiest day in my life. Nothing will ever top that.... nothing. I love that child so much... and now.. as of today... I feel like I gave birth to her. Of course never forgetting who really did.... I finally feel like a mommy. I cannot beleive this beautiful 22 yr old girl gave me the chance to be a parent..... she has to feel good inside about that! She has texted me and written me... checking on her to see how she is. I send pictures and we laugh at all the neat things that she does. After all her and I are the mom... and we get a kick over every move this child makes. It's kinda neat sharing stories about our daughters advances in her new life.... it's nice having her to talk to. I hope this continues...after all this isn't about me.. or Katherine.. it is about Journey (Emmy) and growing up feeling good about all of us too!.... she is one lucky baby girl!
(during her nap while we were eating.... The MCH served us with papers that we were no longer foster parents.... LOL.. of all the irony... that was GREATNESS!)
On Tuesday April 13th we met Katherine AKA Tummy Mommy at the attorney's office. Little did she know we were watching out the window as my friend Felicia drove and parked in the parking lot at the attorney's office. All we saw was Felicia coming around to the other side, jumped in and was obviously holding Katherine. It was hard for her.... and I am actually glad it was because if it weren't then I would know she didn't care about Emmy. I wanted to always know she had a heart and was a good person. That she cared so much for Emmy that she had to let her go to have a better life. I knew for many other reasons how extra hard this was on her. I wasn't like other's.... my main concern was Katherine. I wanted her to feel safe and secure about this. If she didn't... I wanted her to take Emmy and try for a good life with her. Although I knew deep in my heart that wasn't going to be. I went outside the attorney's office and waiting for her to come up the elevator with Journey (AKA EMMY). I wanted to make sure she was sure about this before she met Nana and Papa and before even seeing the inside of the attorney's office. THANK GOD the attorneys office was very nice and the two attorney's one of which was Aunt Melanie's good friend and someone I knew well, but Kristy was so sweet and down to earth. She had a good heart, not like what you would normally think about an attorney's office. aunt Kristi was there taking beautiful pictures of the whole thing... being careful not to overwhelm Katherine...she did a superb job of it all. Taking the most delicarte pictures of such an emotional day. Katherine came around the corner and I just hugged her. At that moment I wanted to adopt her too! I wish we were so rich we could have. Even though I knew it would be somewhat of a risk. I love that girl and I really hope she stays involved somehow in Emmy's life. I know it is hard for her. It isn't for me. I have no jealous or greedy feelings about it. I am Mommy and she is Tummy Mommy. Basically she has two Mommy's and I will never to anything to change that. Only Katherine can change that within Emmy, it isn't my business or place to stand in the way, nor would I ever want to.
We went inside... I asked family to step out along with David and I. I wanted Katherine to hear all the negative in doing this. That there will be no written statement that it is an open adoption. that once she signs her rights away, it is forever. All of the harsh words came down on her like being locked away forever. I knew this would be tough once she heard it soberly, and bluntly from the attorney's lips. I wanted her to do what she felt... not what she thought "we" wanted. So we waited patiently. The attorney (Kristy) left the room and we let Katherine and Felicia talk it through so that Katherine understood the meaning of this. Letting go of her rights forever. Later Katherine came out and handed Emmy to me and said " I want you to be the Mother of Journey and raise her". My heart fluttered with sadness for her and my heart broke inside as well. This isn't about me... this is about Journey...Emmy.... having a good life... but her Mom letting her go because she loved her so much. Bless Katherine... she didn't know if we were lying to her that we would always stay in touch... and were just going to run off for her to never hear about her again. She was so brave. She did such a selfless thing and let her go to a better home and give her a life that she couldnt give her. It was touching ... sad and happiness rolled into one. I put the happiness in the back of my heart and focused on Katherine. That was my main focus and all of my worries! I loved her like a daughter after all the prior communication and support her and I gave each other. (through this Journey). It was a happy time... and a very hard time for Katherine. It just tore out my heart... I cried with her. Once the papers were notorized... we hugged each other with everyone watching. I held her sooo tight. I literally wanted to pick her up and rock her in my arms. She held Journey so tight. Gave her to David and we held each other more. I LOVE her with every part of me. She is so strong and I look up to her for that. If ANYONE would ever say anything about her in a negative way I would lash into them. THAT will be forever! She is family... and now legally! :o)
deep breath.... we walked out and of course hugged some more and then we all went to lunch at Mi Cocina. Except Emmy... Nana, Papa, and Daddy. Yea... Daddy and Mommy is what we are now... (proudly) I got the baby I wanted from the minute I sat eyes on her. I fell in love with her so fast it would make your head spin. I loved her from head to toe as if she was meant for me fomr day one...... (the christmas party)
We went to the restaurant and it was a little tense. Not in a bad way but I think we were all so exhausted emotionally. We all had a margarita and relaxed ..."some". Aunt Jenifer wanted to meet her so we stayed until she could get there with Braden and Hunter. She was so excited to meet Katherine. Later after Emmy's nap Nana and Papa brought her there to see us all again and for Katherine to see how we all are with her. I think she felt good about it.... I think she was starting to feel peace over her. I could look into her eyes and read her mind.... I knew there would be deep pain... but I also knew she trusted me and felt good about the decission she made.
What a joyous time for us all. For Katherine it was bitter sweet... kinda for me too.... but once that focus was gone and I took Emmy home... it was the happiest day in my life. Nothing will ever top that.... nothing. I love that child so much... and now.. as of today... I feel like I gave birth to her. Of course never forgetting who really did.... I finally feel like a mommy. I cannot beleive this beautiful 22 yr old girl gave me the chance to be a parent..... she has to feel good inside about that! She has texted me and written me... checking on her to see how she is. I send pictures and we laugh at all the neat things that she does. After all her and I are the mom... and we get a kick over every move this child makes. It's kinda neat sharing stories about our daughters advances in her new life.... it's nice having her to talk to. I hope this continues...after all this isn't about me.. or Katherine.. it is about Journey (Emmy) and growing up feeling good about all of us too!.... she is one lucky baby girl!
(during her nap while we were eating.... The MCH served us with papers that we were no longer foster parents.... LOL.. of all the irony... that was GREATNESS!)
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