God

Funny how he works.... I lose one baby and gain another. It is time to say the next thing... that I hate... but is so true a lot of times.... What is meant to be is meant to be. He had a plan all along. Don't get me wrong... I might not get to keep her, but I am sure going to think I am... always keeping in the back of my mind it may only be for a short time. Whatever is meant to be will happen.... and besides... why think negatively about it when all you are doing is wasting all the love that she could be absorbing from us. She needs it and deserves it. She deserves the best. We will just take it one day at a time. I know if it gets closer to the adpotion period... I will start to worry. But until then I will enjoy it and make our home hers as she is ours... for now anyway. Afterall, it really isn't about me.. it is about her. So being selfish cannot get in the way. What is best for her is best and I beleive "he" will make happen in his own way. Hopefully we will be a part of her life some how..... We love her.